Hey everyone and welcome to my brand new website, this will be my first post here and I am ready to dive in and share my experiences with severe anxiety! In this article I will be going over living in fear from anxiety and what that can do to your life, because I know it really hurt mine.
Fear starts to take over
From what I have learned from talking with many people that is struggling from anxiety is that most of us are about the same, yes we may have some different symptoms but they all affect us the same. If you read my ” about me” page you will learn about my story but anxiety can ruin the quality of life for you.
I spent 6 years at a job in a factory and I never dealt with anxiety or any of these symptoms until near the end when everything happened. I ended up having to quit that job where I was making good money at, I had to keep missing work and I would go to the hospital at least 3 times a week. Anxiety hit me that hard, sense mine was caused by taking too many energy shots I kept believing that something was seriously wrong with my heart. I would go to the hospital all the time when I would get chest pains that I never had, or palpitations which was also new to me.
All of this did cause me to have occasional PVCs which are like extra beats that jumps in your chest and you can feel them. I was so worried I even went to a cardiologist to get my heart checked, I ended up getting an echo test done and a stress test. My results were good besides the PVCs but he said they were not harmful. But I kept not wanting to believe any doctor. I did not think this was normal and it was a weird way for anxiety and panic attacks to hit me because I consumed too many energy shots.
I would always live in fear, I would be afraid to leave the house or to do things that I used to enjoy. I had to start trying to work for myself sense I was way too bad to work a regular job anymore. I would even have to take days off doing Uber and stuff like that because I didn’t think I was in any condition to drive or be away from home for hours.
Just remember you are not alone and so many of us live in fear and are always worrying about what could be wrong with us. I have learned a lot and I even wrote my first Ebook called Anxiety and Me, I will link that down at the end of this article.
This is something that really made me super depressed, I would be worried to be active at all because I did not want my heart rate to go any higher. So when I started doing uber that’s all I did so I could still pay my bills while I worked on my online business, doing Uber I never had to really get out of the car so I was always sitting down. Then when I would get home I would be sitting on my bed either on my laptop or playing video games, so I was never moving around.
It has been a year now and that has really caught up with me and I am going to be taking steps in order to get back in shape and I hope we all can take the same steps together. I used to weigh around 190, I m 27 years old and I am 6″4. I just went to my doctor recently and they had to weigh me and I was 252 lbs, which really shocked me. I did not believe I gained that much weigh but then it made sense because of all the depression all I did was eat junk food.
We are all in this together and I bet many of you has gone through some of the same things, but this is a new year so its time to make some changes and fight through it. Which is why im working so hard to bring together a community that suffers from anxiety and depression and I want to watch us all grow. I ended up making a Facebook group for all of us that suffers from anxiety, I will link that below also. There are not many members now because its new but I hope that we can watch it grow.
I will be coming out with easy workouts to do so we can take it easy and see how our bodies handles moving around more. I will also be publishing more ebooks in the near future to help more people with their anxiety, everyone needs reassurance.
This is a big one that would give me fear of going out and walking around. It may also be because I am not active anymore which is why my legs would feel weak all the time as I am walking around. But when stuff like this happens it makes your mind race and then you start worrying about that wondering what’s wrong with you and then it ruins your day.
It has been a long time sense I have had a good day, I always wish for a decent day sense good days has been impossible. A later symptom that started happening to me was that I would get super dizzy walking around grocery stores shopping. I started doing Instacart to make money also and at first I was fine and I could shop in stores with no issues. But then it started getting worse and I would start sweating then it would feel like everything would be spinning and then I have to hurry and get out of the store.
There are so many symptoms that comes with anxiety and stress, it can be different for everyone. But the point with me making this site and my group is to hopefully meet many new people dealing with all these struggles and help each other grow and get better. Many changes will be coming, I really need a better diet and I need to become more active and get in shape. Working out can really help depression and anxiety big time.
You are not alone!
This is my first blog post on this new website and I really wanted to go over the fear anxiety can have on your life. But I have noticed that many of us deal with this on a daily basis but changes need to be made in order for us to get better. By living in fear and being lazy can cause more serious health problems which none of us wants.
I want this year to be way better than last year for all of us, lets all get out their and start being more active. Life can be hard because of bills and I have not been able to go out for the last couple of weeks because of dizziness but I am trying to change my mindset so I can get better and get back out their. Everyone has a different story and all ages can struggle from severe anxiety but we can’t always live in fear.
This is 2019 and we need to make the most of it, last year was probably one of the worse years of my life. This year I want to help myself and many more people with my website, support group, and my YouTube channel. I am not big on medication for anxiety, I do not like how it makes me feel and it can be hard to get off of. CBD oil can be a great way to manage your anxiety without the effects of medication, if you are interested in trying out some I will have a link below for it.
Please check out my YouTube channel and subscribe, I will be uploading videos weekly on different topics about anxiety and I would be happy to make a video on a topic you want to know more about, make sure to leave me comments below on anything you would like me to talk about! Also please share this article so we can build this community of people that needs to vent and needs someone to talk too.